Failure and/or rejection are probably my biggest “fears” too. Even though I know they’re silly things to be scared of. In my experience looking for a job is not that fun an experience. But if you concentrate less on the success/failure side of things it can actually be quite rewarding.
When you’re applying for jobs and going to interviews you can really learn a lot about yourself. I tried to think of a less wanky way to say that, but I couldn’t.
What I mean is you learn a lot about your skills, your influences, your hopes and dreams, by being put on the spot and made to talk about them. You will prepare for every interview you go to, but each one will throw a few questions at you that you hadn’t prepared for, or sometimes hadn’t even thought about before.
I started writing a long story here about learning to be myself, realising that I didn’t have to wear a suit, and having nothing to be afraid of. But it was actually a pretty boring story. So I gave up.
Basically, focus less on whether you get the job or not, and think more about the process. You’ll learn something and become a little bit more confident each time.
My first job after uni was pretty awful, and the pay was worse. But it was a nice bunch of people and looking back it was actually a “good” first job. I did Type Setting for foreign JCB manuals. I got given a copy of the manual in English and a Word document of the foreign translation. Then I had to lay the foreign language version out as closely to the English as I could.
I used to know the words DANGER, WARNING, and BACKHOE LOADER in every European language. Which was a really boring party trick.
Good luck with the job hunt anyway!