"This is either a door or a wall for me. A beginning or an end." - Louie
This quote has been in my head ever since I saw the episode of Louie that it was in a few weeks ago. I think it stuck with me because I’ve been feeling a lot like this, for a long time now. So long in fact that I’m certain there is no door. Not one that I can see anyway.
But, if there was a door it would be right here in the wall, meaning the beginning is just over the other side. And a wall is just a wall, right? It doesn’t have to be an end.
So I’m doing the only thing I can think to do.
I’m not sure how long it’ll take me, or even what I’m going to find on the other side. But there’s nothing over here, and anything is better than nothing.
I’m sure that once I get to the other side some smart arse will tell me about the secret door, and laugh at me for climbing all the way over.
But it feels like the climb to the top of the wall is important.
That way I can see what’s over there.
And decide which side I want to climb back down